Am browsing through a friend's blogposts recently [ALMOST EVERY DAY], and realized that how much I (still) love Sensy. The satisfaction after reading back my own posts is still there, after I left for so long. Was thinking about re-creating a new blog and write about my [new?] life, but I when tried to read back those old posts,
Look. I completed my first year of degree life, which means 1/3 of my uni life is gone. I didn't pass my first year with flying colors. But by looking at how much effort I'd put in, it still deserves a thumb-up. My first year [it's actually just 9 months] in the UK was undeniably fun, colorful, challenging, memorable and any words you can imagine for a lil girl who never go overseas for this long. Well, this is not the first time staying away from home, but this is definitely the first time staying away from home THIS FAR AND THIS LONG.
I talked to a long-lost friend, K, last night. We stayed together for one and a half year, graduated from college together and continue to chase for our own dreams in the UK, but tbh I never really meet her up in this 9 months. We just didn't plan/manage to meet up. When she came to my place, I wasn't there; when I was at her place, my schedule was always packed. We're not that close, but at times we often have deep talks (at least deeper than usual) with people that we're not too close with.
'How do you find your first year? Any regrets of not doing anything?'
I have to say, I was asking myself when I asked her this question. Struck me hard.
I should've travel more and see more magnificent parts of the world. I should've put those emotions aside and focus more on my studies. I should've switch off my laptop and go for more night-outs to know more friends around the world . I should've stop finding reasons for myself and go out to do more volunteering work. I should've continue my yoga class for the second semester so that I can stop myself putting on weight. I should've wake up earlier everyday and maintain my table tennis training. I should've put those annoying personal problems behind and enjoy the moments. I could've done better than what I've done.
There are regrets. But they are meant to be. Along the journey, I try new things. I experience different seasons. I blend myself into the new culture. I learn. I grow.
And let's restart these. I'm gonna try my best to fill up my second year with tonnes of joy and less regrets. I hope I can continue to write [OKAY, TYPE] in Sensy. I don't know who's reading this, but I appreciate that you still care. Maybe we're close. Maybe we used to be close. We might not be talking to each other anymore, but all those memories together, it's always in my mind. You're always one of the jigsaw pieces in my life.
Alright, I wish you all the best, mate. We'd come this far. =)
Okay, boss just came in, I better start to act like I'm busy. KBYE.
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