A day before the tournament...

I sent a message to one of my old friends, Ting, from my previous school, DM...

She's one of the pingpong players too... :)

I thought I would meet my previous pingpong coach from DM...

but she told me... He'd transferred to another school since last year...

How sad...

Luckily I'm still having a ball of DM that he gave me before I left DM...

I'll be always remember him whenever I used that ball... XD

I woke up early in the morning...

and started to find a shirt that suit for today's event...

I picked DM's pingpong club t-shirt BRAVELY... =,=

I don't know why...

I just feel safe wearing it for the tournament... :)

I was wearing the same t-shirt with all the ping pong players from DM!!! XD

How brave am I....

Everything is just going smooth...

I went through the tournament schedule as I reached there...

And I found that my path to the semi-final is damn smooth... lolz

I'm going to beat down a Malay girl at first... and followed by another Malay girl...

Gosh... I can just win without any great challenge?!

ok... I'm not going to talk so long on this...

As the result... I got 2nd-runner up in the district level tournament...

And I'm going to the state level~ :)

Everything is juuuuustttt smooth...

Unluckily, Ting was defeated in the first round...

Her opponent is one of the experienced player in the district...

Unlucky her...

She's like a bit upset with that...

As she requested me to have a match with her...

She wanna see whether she is more suitable to represent the district to the state level...

I was quite shocked with this... well... I didn't accepted it... =,=

Well, I'm trying to focus on the period I'd been through before the tournament actually...

My skills lost...

I'd no time for practicing...

I'd try my best and sacrificed my preparation class and homework for the training...

Sounds like hardship huh? =,=

In fact, I didn't aim anything for the tournament...

And I never expect I can reach the state level...

Everything is out of expectation... XD

However, because of this tournament...

I'd neglected my studies...

I couldn't followed up with those topics that I'd missed for the tournament...

I should work on my ass after the Chinese New Year I think...

Okay... here's some pics... XD

*The memorable ball... XD

*Ting and YY... :)

*medaaaaaal... XD

[12 January 2011... talking nonsense...]

Every steps I take...
I think of Mummy's words...
"You walk like a duck... macam itik"
=,= okay... that's rude... but I admit it...
I just can't walk properly...
like graceful girls...
like sissy boys... =,= lol
And some of my friends are used to call me 'kedek'...
means walk like ducks...

Mummy said,
"See how Jay walks.... smooth and gentle... She's obedient when she's at her 2 or 3... Mummy told her not to walk like this, then she won't... but you are such a stubborn girl... Just try to put your legs closer when walking...=,="

Since that, every move I make, I just try to walk like sissy boys...=,=
Gosh... I'm 17! And I'm learning to walk properly in this age?!
Ridiculous...
I wish I can walk like Jay... and Mummy will be pleased... hahaha...

Besides that, I found that my standing poses are kinda weird...
Mummy noticed that by observing my worn-out slippers in hostel last year...
Mummy had another pair of slippers at home last year...
And it's the same one as mine in the hostel...
Well... hers is just nice... but mine... the bubbly thingy that prevent me from slipping off on wet floor are worn-out... and flatten... by ME...=,=
How rude am I...
Gosh... this couldn't be...
I'm the princess...
I'm the one to be gentle and walk softly...
I would not like my husband to criticize me about the way I walk... hohoho...

Okay... another wish in 2011 is listed... XD

Walk properly in 2011, YY!

[10 January 2011, with a wet nose...]

Mummy came to visit me yesterday...
Brought my clothes and lunch for me...
I don't know why... I have a stronger-than-before appreciation to my family members...
Deep from my heart...
Daddy, Mummy, and of course, SuperBro and Jay...
Maybe due to the less rate of using handset in hostel...
Less messaging and talking on phone...
But always contact Mummy and Jay...
Furthermore becoming more struggle in academies than last year...
I really have no time for those entertainments but study all day long and sleep early...

After Mummy went back home, I was going to take a nap...
I checked on old messages in the inbox, preparing the mood for the nap...
Well, I saw a date, accidentally...
# 4 January 2011 #

Gosh! How familiar the date is!
It's Mummy birthday and I never wish her?!
How could this happened?
I texted Mummy immediately...
"Mummy! I'd forgotten something very important!"
Mummy didn't reply... I slept in a damn bad mood...

Before the preparation class, I got a message form Mummy...
"What?"
Although it's just a meaningless 'What?', but I feel like wanna burst into tears...
And Mummy called me before I could sent out my reply...
"What's the matter?"
"Mummy..." [trying to control the tears...]
"What's wrong?" [seems worrying...]
"I'd forgotten to wish you on your birthday..."
"Haiyo... It's okay... Mummy didn't blame you on this..."
"I'm sorry..."
"Mummy know you're struggling hard, right? Take it easy, girl! Mummy's still alive... You still got chance to wish me on time next year! And I know you'll give me the best birthday gift - your SPM result.... right? Show me your effort!"
"Happy Birthday, Mummy..." [started crying...]
"Ya... Thanks for the belated wish... okay... okay... don't waste your time here... go and study... take care kay..."
"Bye-bye Mummy..."


Gosh...
I love you Mummy...
I won't let you down for one more time...
You can keep my words...

[9 January 2011, 15:41, in my class...]

Mummy always feels worry about me...
She's always worrying me, the only Chinese student in the college...
whether I'm alone in the hostel or not...
whether I have my meals on time or not...
whether I have friends or not...
whether I feel happy with the hostel life or not...

Sometimes, I may complain to Mummy about my roomates...
Sometimes, I may complain to Mummy about the food at dining hall...
Mummy always ask me whether I wanna go back to government school..
I answered, "How long the journey I'd been through here... How can I stop it here?"
It'll always followed by the second question...
"Why don't you go back to the government school when I asked you last year?"
"I'd chosen this way... Why should I change the direction that I'd planned?"

In fact, Mummy is the one who always support me no matter what...
Sometimes, I feel tired of being the excellent one...
Mummy always buck me up at the moment I think of giving up...
She told me, I must push my ass up and keep on struggling when others are having fun and entertaining themselves...
She told me, never get down and prove to everyone that I'm the best among the best... even I'm the only Chinese here... even I'm all alone here...
She told me, always think of my own aim and just focus on it... Do not turn back or look at other places... try to concentrate then I'll be the winner...:)


Besides Mummy, Jay is always there for me...
She's a good listener...
Jay followed SuperBro's journey track, while I follow Jay's...
They'd been through the track that I'm using now...
Jay always understand my circumstances...
Jay always know what to say to comfort my soul...
Jay always know the best for me... :)
I just can't buck up without her...


I love you, Mummy and Jay...
I'll do my best... :)

I'm home... a-g-a-i-n... :)
I'm feelin' goooooood....
Well... I can't even touch a keyboard in the hostel...
then how come I can update Sensy? hehe...
I'm going to re-write all my feelings where I missed to share them here...
Forgive me for the late posts... please... :)

[9 January 2011, 00:03, on my bed... =,=]

It's about 1 week I'd been here...
It's totally different from last year...
And I'm the one who wish to make the differences to achieve what I wanna get...

1. I'm not going to make 'gangs' in college...
~know what, it's a waste of time for 'gangs'...
even whether eating the lunch or not I need to refer to the gang members' decision...
or have to wait for all the members to move together to the dining hall....
what a waste of time... =,=

2. I'm not going to have 'maggie' meal more than twice a week...
~Maggie is unhealthy... everyone knows that...
For a student who's going to have BIG exam shouldn't have such meal...
Well, Mummy is not allowing to have Maggie meal instead of having lunch at dining hall...

3. I'm not going to continue the culture of 'LEPAK'...
~For your acknowledge, I did 'lepak' a lot last year...
It's just like boasting, chatting and eating snacks together with friends... It's a great feeling...
We talk about life... about love... about guys... and gossiping...
We are like sharing stories without worries...
Well, I'm going to stop these...
It takes times and harms me actually... but I do LOVE it!
However, it's a great idea for me if I replace the 'lepak' moment with study time... =,=

4. I'm going to stay alone always...
~Friends are great... but just for certain times...
Most of the time, they are troublesome... =,=
Sorry to say that...but I really wanna avoid maximum friend's problem in this SPM year...
I prefer to study alone...
I prefer to eat alone...
I prefer to walk alone...
I prefer to take my bath alone...
Ooops... just for joke for the last sentence..XD

5. I'm going to be a super-duple boogie-oogie hardworking student...
~I'm going to revise all the time... I'm going to study all day long!
No more staying up in the hostel!
A little promise for Daddy, Mummy, SeperBro, Jay and SGG...
I can do this! For them... and for myself...


Well, in the first week of hostel life in 2011, I'd made a motivation for myself...

*My study timetable... yeay...!

*Where we start is not as important as where we finish....

*My pinky-kinky bed... :)

*The very first morning in the hostel in 2011... 7:02am...

Everything is going to be alright... YY, just do it!
Sometimes you may feel tired or under pressure... but just do it!
Struggle a bit then you can fly!
Just for this year... the SPM year... do it for your own future...
Daddy and Mummy will be proud of you when you success...
SuperBro, Jay and SGG will be pleased when you totally make it...
Just do it, YY...
NEVER-GET-DOWN!

This is the last post before I leave my sweet-sweet-home...
I miss everyone here... sincerely...

Daddy... don't make yourself older... just reduce some of the work... let the workers to do... and take care of yourself k...

Mummy... happy to be with you this holiday... I know the way I talk and my words may hurt you... I would like to apologize here, hope you can forgive me... I'll miss your home-cooked food after this, for sure...

SuperBro... glad to have holidays with you... It was fun gaming together, and I felt upset when I saw you crying in front of Jessie because of the depressions... Take it easy Babe, we all know you are always the best... :)

Jay... I had on phone with you quite many times in this holiday... Although you missed out a lot of family gatherings and special occasions... But you have to know that no one ever forget you... Everyone was asking SuperBro and I where's our beloved sister :) Be tough, Jay... Happy to receive your posted-christmas present... Thank you! And I'm sorry that I have not enough posts to let you give me the rewards... :) [one more post!XD]


I'd done my packing just now...
I felt scared suddenly when I was packing...
I feel nervous to go back to the rushing life... life under pressure...
Hope I can go through it...
I really appreciate everything that people had done for me...


I'm going to start my journey here, the starting line, to the peak of mountain, the destiny!
I'm R-E-A-D-Y!
Serting, here YY comes! XD


Pen off.
2/1/2011 12.39am
[clock on laptop]

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! XD
It's 010111!!!
Time flies, I'd become a 17-year-old-girl [not yet]...
And today will be my very last holiday at home...
After this, I would seldom to update my posts...
I'll miss you Sensy... :)

Alright, let's talk about the countdown?
No no, let's talk about after the countdown...
Ok, I reached home from somewhere [it isn't important at all]
and switched on the laptop, feel like wanna write some emo sentences on my Sensy...
SUDDENLY, I heard the 'demon' voice... became closer and closer...
And a 'tuck' sound followed... and everything was over...=,=
Mummy switched off the WIFI... ok... I can't do anything without that... =,=

Alright, alright, stop the murmuring YY...
Very first of all... I would like to wish my friend a Happy New Year and Happy Baby Day!

Ya... No doubt, her birthday is 0101!
Ok, I knew her since 2006 in a BM quiz competition...
She's a brilliant girl... even me, I got 55+ something in the competition but she got top 20!
[It's a National competition... We represent our state so we stay in the same hotel room...]
At first, we didn't communicate much and I started to talk with her when we were visiting around Johor... She's quite talkative actually... :)
After that competition... we contact each other with phone messaging...
Till now... we have facebook to link us together...
I'm glad we are still friends until now although we are getting more and more unfamiliar...
Happy Birthday V-ven! :)

*Happy Baby Day!*

This morning... [about 2/3 am] I acted like an idiot...
I don't know why... super damn emo and couldn't sleep...
I bought Hotlink SuperSaver for an hour but no one to call...
Damn idiot, right?
I called him, but he seemed exhausted... [Oldies always like this, he said...=,=]
So, he didn't accompany for the New Year XD
Therefore, I was on phone with my besties... :)
Hmm... It'd been long long time I couldn't chat with Jin such that way...
Before that I just feel like everyone had changed and hard to communicate with them...
Even I went out to hang out with them,
our conversation was just like rubbish... pointless...=,=
But this morning,
we talked about a lot of thingy...
I was sad... and I wondered why...
I seemed like not satisfied Year 2010 and felt like I had a lot of mistakes still haven't corrected back...

And we talked about the highway!
Weirdo huh? :)

YY : We are on a highway all the time actually...
JJ : What?
YY : When we found that we had follow the wrong track... we had to make a U-turn...
JJ : [started to understand what I meant] Why don't you make the U-turn now?
YY : We need time to find the junction for U-turn... =,=
JJ : Haiyo.. just cross the road and U-turn...!
YY : Damn dangerous, Jin... =,=
JJ : So... just take the time, keep travelling and keep finding the junction...
YY : Yea, that's why 'WE' need time...
JJ : I'll help you to find the function!
YY : Haha, how?
JJ : I'll help you to observe the signboards, so you can comcentrate on your driving :)
YY : Thanks Jin... [Eyes and nose are becoming wet... lol]
JJ : Happy New Year!
YY : Happy New Year! :)

[Conversation was edited.]

Love you, Jin ♥

*She said she wanna be my 'jimui' on my wedding... :)*

Everything takes time... right?
Even the thing we wanna make a big correction on it.. takes time!
I'll make a wish list for Year 2011...
It's 2011, so... there's 11 wishes for me! [歪理 =,=] yeay~! :)


2011 WishList :

1. Have a neat and tidy room! lolz!
2. Family members always in the pink of health!
3. Friends will always got their own path!
4. Beat BIO down!
5. Have happy periods... =,=
6. Well done in SPM!
7. Daddy reduces his working time!
8. Mummy always have nice rest!
9. SuperBro always in sweet-sweet-love with Jessie!
10. Jay reach her goal for U!
11. SGG got married! [huh?=,=]


Correction : 11. I can correct all the mistakes done in 2010!





Ok, Happy New Year guys! :)
Have a nice day!